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* Wednesday, November 02, 2005 * I'm tired. In any way you can think of... physically. mentally. spiritually. whatever. I'm just tired. (I forsee a super random ranting session here... BEWARE. Read at your own risk.) I'll understand when I grow up. HAH. I thought that only existed in the movies. Didn't know that applies even in this day... I don't know what will become of me when I do grow up. Will I be faithful or astrayed? healthy or sickly? famous or unknown? rich or poor? contented or depressed? I don't know. No one will do until the time is here except Him... I've plans. But His plans are higher than my plans. That's a fact. I don't understand. Sometimes I just can't. No matter how hard I try... Why can't I do this? Why can't I do that? What's wrong with me saying this? What's wrong with me doing that? WHY? I'm always doing foolish stuff. Stupid stuff like running after someone and getting myself injured. I caused my life to stop for half a year. Screwing up my 18. Leaving a BIG mess in school. How much more stupid can I get? Felt like I stopped living in this world for a few months. All this felt like a nightmare. Only worse. At least I could wake up from a nightmare. School has just started and it sucked already. A whole new set of classmates. AGAIN. When will this end? Guess it will never. I need strength and courage. God, help me. Assure me that this mess in my life happened for a reason and I just have to trust You and follow You day by day. It's no use complaining or grumbling. I'll just make my own life more miserable. Lord, You know me best. Better than I know myself. Thank You for this assurance. Only with Your strength that I can do all these. Amen. Am I what I'm supposed to be? Labels: Random
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