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* Monday, April 25, 2005 * no bible study today... m's busy with her assignments. always thought a teacher-turned-student would make the best students... well. *looking at her* maybe not. maybe ALL students are like that... i was like that - pushing everything to the very last minute... actually think i am still quite like that.*sigh* been doing my 'homework' for bs... very 'guai' hor? ;p it's the kinda book that i wish i can finish reading immediately. but it's NOT possible cos it's a daily thingie... it speaks to me pretty much. made me think a lot. made me realise a lot of stuff i was trying to run away from. made me wanna change... into the person God wants me to be. to give my life up to Him. to be a shining light for all around me. hypocrites... do you know of anybody who's like that? or are you like that? been pondering on this topic lately... there were a few questions in the book that really got my mind to reflect: - are you a hypocrite in any way? ... - do you ever find yourself 'acting'? ... - do you ever find yourself slipping on a mask to hide the way you truly feel? ... - do you speak words that your life does not back up? ... - are you willing to forgive others as God has forgiven you? ... - do you pray at prayer meetings to be seen by others, but not at home when you are alone with God? ... - do you behave one way at church and another way at home or in your business? ... personally, i am guilty of saying "yes" to most of the questions above... not really of hypocrisy actually but more of hiding what is really within me... for me, sharing and being totally open is tough. there's just so much of me that i don't really want people to know... ashamed? self-conscious? i think i wanted a perfect image in front of others, i don't want others to know what problems i have, or how 'bad' my life is... have always thought that there is no need for others to know the other side of my life. how wrong was that thinking of mine... never knew that i was carrying such a heavy burden on my back. i feel so much 'lighter' now - as i learn to cast all my cares on the Lord. as i begin to open up my life to closer friends... it's an amazing feeling i must say... *heh* as i continue to go through this book, i would expect to be transformed, to be someone who would appear the same both inside and out... do pray for me! celebrated my best friend in secondary school (peixi)'s birthday in the afternoon at suki sushi. it was a buffet thingie... think i ate too much. indigestion. then we went ktv-ing at kbox... i love going to ktv... it should be the thing i like to do best besides sports. went home too late... think godma wasn't very pleased. well well... till i blog again.
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